i'm back... for now.

i seem to have an on and off attitude with blogging. sometimes i just really can't be bothered to write about my life or what i feel where as other days i could go on forever, although it's mostly ranting.

i've actually been quite good this semester, attending all my classes and have been doing my work ahead of its deadline. it feels good to be organized and on top of the workload. but today i was pulled aside by my study advisor and a previous lecturer and they sat me down, saying that they're a bit concerned because of my group project and my participation for it last semester. everything they said made sense, but after what they said, i wanted to tell them so badly that last semester i had lost all motivation and i really didn't care. what's more, is that it's hard to feel dedicated and involved in a project when the groupmates don't include you in their discussions or just don't listen to you. it just makes you feel like crap and don't wanna do anything. but of course, i didn't. i just sat there and nodded the whole time.

i really feel that i'm picking back up and i actually have some motivation to do well in the courses this semester again. i really hope i can keep it up and show them that it was a temporary thing and it was only for that one class...